"Success is going from failure to failure without a loss of enthusiasm." – Anon
Have you ever wanted to go back in time? or just to feel the same energy like you had before? The enthusiaism, the craving for new things.... are some of the part the I miss the most....
Ada beberapa titik dalam kehidupan dimana aku bisa overcome things that I never imagined to face to... I was once never feeling lonely when I was alone. I was once bravely facing everything while I was so exhausted and even clueless. I was once a person who had a strong belief and dream. I was so determined in anything comes to my life in any way I could. But now, why do I feel everything is different?
A friend told me that I'm not in the same teritorry as I was before, where currently everything's more heterogent and challenging than before. I need to be more tactical in a very simple thing in my life. But is that what I want? Is that what I want to achieve? or I just don't want to learn? or I just don't want to change? or I just want to be in the safe side?
Many things wandered in my head, my fears, my regrets, my thoughts, my questions, my instability. Well, perhaps some one can be changed because of the environment or the forces are bigger than their life so they should change and survive. But become a survivor is not enough here, so what should I do? I just miss the old me, with the courage and the hope :(
..looking back over my shoulder.....
