Current Status: Sloth Reader MODE ON

Hmm.. I was once declared myself as a bookworm or somewhat reading lots of things, good or bad, align or opposite my views & beliefs. I swallowed all of them, so that I have huge and vast point of view despite of most people. There are sometimes I can see things that no one sees, hmm in knowledge terms yes, not somekind of scary things spiritual thingy. I have had such a big, HUGE inspiration from reading, through it I got inspirationas for day to day basics, or just simply imagination on how people live in other side of the world. Reading led me to other time or era, WWII, 20's, 40's 70's or even a glimpse of future fiction. Reading can bring you to someoneelse's point of view, the way of thinking, the way of life, or just the way they talk or respond to others. That's why I love to read, you can be anyone you want, you can be anywhere, anytime and you can speak many language too... well as if 💞 even though I can only read books in Bahasa Indonesia & English, hmm and Arabic for Qur'an, though the translation is still using English or Bahasa.

I like to read Sloth-like-pace :D

Through time, I read less and less, I don't know why, may be I'm just too lazy, or lately I get busy with my social media like Instagram, Youtube and others, and yes serial movies, K-Drama *sigh* well that is toxic, I can admit but it's just another guilty pleasure other than junk food & soda drinks :D but somehow my daily basis works absorb most of my time and my head. It occupies both mentally & physically (I get easily sick lately though). How I can't blame them, I just have to stay update and stay awake to communcation about works trhough Instant Messaging like whatsApp, telegram and others :( then I realize, I started reading lots of books but never finished them, but yes I had the time to BUY them... 

I have MASSIVE PILES OF UNREAD BOOKS, WHY? I just looooooooove to buy them, and claiming didn't have much time to read (yeah bullsh*t) :D Let's see, I always have the time to visit a book store, in malls, or airports haahahaha, I do like to visit them than I visit departement store to buy clothes, shoes, or bags. And I got to be honest I lately bought 9 books yes BIG NINE from the yearly book market BBW Jakarta 2017, I did it spontaneously, when will I read them?? I DON'T KNOW!! However I still got 2 books I borrowed from a friend and still not finished the, where I borrowed them like 2 years ago OMAIGAAD, and I just had finished one of the two books... :( now I admit that I'm such a sloth... in the bookworm world TT_TT..

I recently start to read again, finishing one borrowed book was such an accomplishment, and when I see through again my Goodreads account, there are lots of currently reading status and not yet updated... and some were from 2010, what have I become :(

The one newest and I don't know :(

The one from 2010 :(

Some of the books I really don't know where exactly their exostences are :D well It's all depending on my mood, when you see my colection of books, it differs in so many ways, I'd ather loves fiction but I love historical fiction sometime chicklit would satisfy my light taste for laguange or just to have a flowing style in thinking.

Okayyy.. despite of the books piles drama I do want to finish my book chalenge this year, yes somehow I'd hope for that though, 5 books for the whole year. Mediocre, I know, but really with this kind of sloth-like-reading-pace I bet finishing 5 books would be such an achievement.. so thereee.. wish me luck!!! (and still I want to buy MORE books :D)

5 Books for Whole Year, Wish Me Luck ;)

Why Am I An Assh*le? But So Is Everyone Else...

Yes, I'm still here, Alhamdulillah, in a healthy condition despite my struggle for obese-type-of-not-wanting-to-diet thingy.. and yes, I'm still single and already a thirty something person... well I don't know what people say about my condition (the single thingy) since I never listen what other said like forever..

But it's 2017.. yes 2017, it's like everything's grown and changed like within a blink of eye.. many things has shifted, like morals, habits, economy -yeah right- and trends. Talking about behavioural trends, sometimes I ask myself, "Where has the gentlemen's gesture gone?"... Yep, I call it, "gentlemen gesture", what is that? well simple things, like giving hand to a woman, girl, or female while she's on a stair, giving her a ride when it's midnight already even though the road is contradictory.. may be the examples are too much, but like giving a girl compliment just to make her smile, is just too rare lately. Or as simple as open a seat or a chair to woman without being asked, now I would call it a miracle.

It doesn't have to make a woman helpless to accept that kind of gesture, or it's too western style or we demand it as equality.. NO.. NO.. NO... for me this kind of gesture is flattering, and it's so rare to find lately, that a boy or a man with intentionally has a bad tendency towards women can use this as one of their methods. Yeah, this kind gesture sometimes misinterpret into a bad intention to get short pleasure.

Who do I have to blame? the equality movements? the independence fight for women so that we -as women- need no help from men? well what is the meaning equal? well I have said there once during my bachelor degree era, I said that equal for men and women are not the same, well we cannot kill the nature side of men or women. I took a degree that majority is men, electrical engineering but it didn't make me lost my feminine side, it did improved and boosted my feminine side because it was easy to be acknowledged as a rare creature in the field. Raised and grew in this kind of situation made me a very loud and outspoken person, though I still uphold the feminine side of me. Showing your feminine side is not, once again NOT stupid, it shows that you have taste and sensitivity more than other, not as a weakness but as a strength that can only be felt as a woman.

Well I demand these gentlemen gestures as a woman, it would not make me as an as*h*le right? because it becomes my requirement for a man.. well don't you want to be treated as a lady despite recent styles of life.. likewise an as*ho*e??


-Jakarta, April 24th, 2017-